There in the cool morning light with hundreds of people around, the feeling of being outside of myself sweeps over me. Am I really getting ready to do this, after months of imagining it? Like many things in Mexico the start of the race is delayed. 6:30 comes and goes. We all become more anxious to go, and start tugging and gnawing at our reins. Like many others I busy myself by taking pictures, or shooting videos. At 6:40 there’s an announcement that the race will start in five minutes. I notice how fresh and cool the air feels on my body, unaware of the awful heat and suffering we will all experience in a short time. Finally there’s a count-down and at 6:45 we are turned lose. The front runners are all Tarahumara, and they go tearing out of town likes it’s a drag race. I hold my camera above my head and shoot video while laughing and howling at the hilarious scene I find myself in. Months of careful eating, running, and weight lifting, and here I am laughing like a lunatic, and howling like a mad dog. God it feels good.
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| Photo By Jovan Atanackovic |
The first loop heads out of town, traveling up river for about two miles before it crosses the river at a concrete bridge, and starts the climb to Guadalupe Coronado. At this point the road turns from a good gravel road to a rocky, rutted jeep trail that demands all your attention lest you want to face plant. The race strings out in a double and single file line up the broken road. I watch in amazement as the front of the pack, a half mile or more ahead of me, runs up the grade, and disappears around the first corner. For me, starting at this grade, I’ll be walking all the hills. I don’t know much about ultra-running, but I do know that fifty miles is a very long way, and that energy conservation is the rule of the day.
About a mile and a half from the turn-around, the front runners pass me going the other way. All of them are Tarahumara, some of them are wearing jeans, but all of them are just hauling ass. As I reach the turnaround at mile five, a fierce canyon wind wipes the dirt road into a choking dust cloud and I stumble half blind for the last quarter mile to the aid station. It’s like a scene from a Clint Eastwood western but this movie is cast with half-crazed ultra-runners, blind and laughing at the absurdity of the scene. It’s at this point that the pancakes have had enough jostling. I ask a number of people about a bathroom, but I may as well have been asking for a space ship that can move through time by an as-of-yet undiscovered force; Caballo had warned us about this, and told us to carry some T.P. I was glad for the heads up. I feel so much better after my pit stop, and pick up the pace. After a short time I start to reel in runners who are even slower than me. Eventually I make it back to the bridge, cross, turn right, and start the section I have been dreading, the climb to Mesa Naranjo.
The next two miles is a gravel road that climbs almost continuously. It’s in this section that the front runners pass me again going downhill. Daniel Oralek from the Czech Republic and a group of Tarahumara race past me. I clap and cheer them on, not having lost any of my enthusiasm. Following close behind them is more Tarahumaras, then Will Harlan and Hiroki. Intermixed with these runners are the guys in jeans. I’m not kidding.
The big, wide, well-groomed road is followed by miles of rocky trail that climbs as steep as any trail I’ve hiked on. I’ve been dreading this climb since I hiked down it on my way to Urique a few days earlier. But it’s during this section that I see some extraordinary strength.
This part of Mexico has been in a drought for a number of years, and the crops that the Tarahumara live on have been failing. Caballo’s race not only pays out cash prize money, but also gives food vouchers to any runner who can complete even the first loop, twenty-two miles, with maybe four thousand feet of climbing. The gringos are here to run with the Tarahumara, in this fabled race, and many of the Tarahumara are here to race for the win. But for many, the incentive is to feed their families. It’s during this hellish section that I witness the meaning, or spirit, of this race.
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| Photo By Jovan Atanackovic |
I catch-up first with a mother and her daughter, both are wearing the traditional brightly colored dress and long sleeved blouse, and both are very tired, but the daughter is exhausted. The mother is quietly urging her daughter on. The girl runs, then walks, and then runs a little more, then stops. As I pass them I urge them on, but what I really want to do is cry. Their struggle and quiet determination is like nothing I have ever seen. The sun is climbing, and the heat is starting when I come across two young girls, also in traditional dress. One of the girls would run or walk from one shady spot to the next, then coax her friend to follow. Finally I come across a family from Mexico City. Mom and Dad are looking rather beat up on, but their son, who is thirteen, is doing pretty well. Funny though, but very late in the day I would see not the father and his son, but mom, still struggling along, looking like death twice warmed over. The race might be miles ahead of me I think to myself, but the heart of the drama is here at the back of the pack.
Finally I reach the aid station at Mesa Naranjo, pick-up my wrist band, grab some fruit and start the long descent back towards Urique. Unfortunately this section is steep, rocky and rutted. An attempt to run fast leads to a tense moment as I leap over a giant rut and land in a pile of loose rock. “Slow down John” I tell myself, “Remember, if you break an ankle out here you’ll have miles before you reach help.” I reel in a few more runners who are also having trouble with the grade, and after almost an hour I reach the big gravel road. I pass the bridge, and jog the two miles back into Urique. It has taken me four hours and forty-five minutes, which is about thirteen minutes a mile, not exactly a blistering pace, but pretty much on target. At this point I feel pretty good, but little do I know.
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| The descent from Mesa Naranjo |
After refueling at my drop bag, I head out of town with Roy from Michigan. From Urique the course heads down river for six miles of rolling dirt road before it crosses the river and heads up the brutal climb to Los Alisos. Having Roy’s company during this section is a great help. We talk, run, walk, and interact with the local spectators. Roy’s enthusiasm for this event and life in general, is contagious and is carrying me along, but at mile twenty-five/six I start to feel the heat and the effort. After another mile we reach the aid station at the suspension bridge. I’m hungry, and I feel awful. It feels to about ninety degrees, and all systems are flashing red. I get a bottle of water, a cup of pinole (ground corn mixed with water) one whole banana, two orange slices, and a ham sandwich. I sit in the shade and contemplate the meaning of this madness. At this point a young Tarahumara lad limps across the bridge on his way back from Los Alisos. He has a hard time bending his legs to negotiate the four tall steps at the end of the bridge, and then he finds a spot in the shade just to my left. His eyes are glazed, and he stares off into that middle ground. He looks absolutely beat so I get him a bottle of water and a cup of pinole, but when he takes them from me his eyes say “I don’t think I can eat or drink.”
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Daniel Oralek heading to Los Alisos. Photo By Jovan Atanackovic |
Roy is ready to go, but I’m not, so I send him on. I know what’s coming and I really don’t need any witnesses. I cross the bridge and run the short distance to the start of the climb. For the next hour and fifteen minutes I gasp, stumble and curse my way up through the burnt landscape. I plead for relief, but God, who has a devious sense of humor, only turns up the heat. At the two aid stations I grab a bottle of water and pour half on my head. It hisses into steam. Warning lights that I have never seen before start to flash. Runners passing me on their way down urge me on with kind words of encouragement. You’re looking good, they tell me, and your only ten minutes from the top. “Yeah, bullshit” I think to myself. “Your skin and eyes are bright red, your brains are cooked, and I look like death.” But then I stagger into the little slice of heaven called Los Alisos. I sit on a rock in the shade of a giant tree for a very long time. Barefoot Ted lays curled in the fetal position a short distance away, a victim of the heat. I pour water into myself, take more electrolytes and eat some more fruit, but still all I want to do is lay down. I began to realize that I am not going to make the 4:30 p.m. cut-off time back in Urique to complete the full fifty miles. Emotions swirl around my cooked brain. I’ve trained hard to be here, so to not finish the full fifty miles is a huge disappointment. Worse yet is not to be able to contribute my full five hundred pounds of corn to the Tarahumara. This is a blow, and I feel that I’ve really let them down. But I also realize how badly I’ve had to flog myself to get to this point, and then I remember that I still have nine miles between me and Urique; two years ago nine miles was a long run. Then, in the back of my poached brain, one last brain cell raises its hand and quietly says “Caution steep grade ahead.”
A short time later Luke from Wales, and Steve from Liverpool arrive. To make room for them at the table I wander a short distance away to stand in the shade. Then it’s time to go.
The next three miles are a blur. The heat is terrible, and half way down there is a nasty up-hill that faces south and is in the full on blazing sun. This section of trail throws my recovering brain back into the red zone and the warning lights flash on and off, on and off. My scrambled brain decides that it would be good to run, well, because it’s downhill, easy, right? I jog some gentle grade and feel pretty good, I’m making up time, I think to myself. Then the trail steepens and I pick up speed. When I hit the first hard left turn I have just enough strength to slow down to make the corner. Now my legs are complete jelly and I’m in neutral, coasting downhill out of control. I have just enough brain power to stare at the trail a few feet in front of me and that’s when that one last brain cell screams “LOOK UP!” I look up to see a yawning abyss for a catcher’s mitt waiting for me, but down in the bottom right hand corner of the blurry picture is a hard, rocky, right turn. “Oh Crap!” I say out loud. I slam on the brakes, but the pedal goes to the floor. My legs are shot. I pump the pedal furiously and my body reacts by throwing itself into a crouch, facing right with its left leg stretched out and weighted hard like a downhill ski racer. Rocks and dust are thrown up as I skid into the corner, and as I do, I force my left hand around to keep myself facing right. While all of this is going on, multiple images of my demise play out in the sauce that was once my brain. In one scene, I whip off the edge, tumble hundreds of feet down the steep mountain side and come to rest broken in a thousand pieces at the bottom of a dry, desolate ravine. In the other scenario I whip off the edge, take one great rolling bounce, then get tangled up in a cactus that saves my life. I make the turn, and with the help of adrenalin, manage to slow down before the next corner, but the experience frightens the hell out of me, and I decide to walk.
Sometime later I make it to the river and cross the bridge. The aid station is packing up but they gladly get me water and a banana. Luke, Steve, and a young man from Mexico City cross the bridge and join me at the aid station. We talk about our day and what we have seen. To my surprise the three of them are still pushing for the full fifty miles, but it’s already past 4:30 I tell them. No matter they say, and off they go at a slow trudge. This is such a great sport I think to myself.
It’s a very long time before I reach Urique, but I don’t care. Twice I’m offered a ride back to town, but turn them down. The air has cooled off enough for my brain to reboot and I’m able to appreciate what has taken place, and also the beauty around me. Long rays of afternoon sun light blaze through gaps in the canyon rim. The opposite walls light up in mossy green, burnt orange and copper, colors hidden during the heat of the day. Underlining all of this runs the Urique River, coursing quietly in the bottom of this broad canyon.
For a couple of miles I have the company of five local children: two girls, and three boys. There are hundreds of half-empty water bottles that litter the road back to Urique, and I get caught up in a running war between the kids. The boys pick up a bottle or two and when the girls get close enough they fling the water at them. A couple of times I get caught in the cross fire, but when they see that the bright red gringo is laughing, they laugh even louder. Then the girls screech and race off down the road. I’m completely astonished as to how fast, and agile these girls are. They hold hands and race down the rocky road, leaping over ruts, with grace, and ease. Okay. I get it now. If you grow up in a place like this, you get to run like that.
The kids are a great deal of fun, and when they reach their destination and we part company I’m a bit sad and fall back into my solitary trudge.
When I reach Urique the party is in full swing. Jeremy is the first to see me. He wraps me in a hug, and congratulates me as though I have just topped out on Everest. Many others are there to welcome me back. Roy, Dennis and Tyler are there with a hug and hardy congratulations. Then out of the night comes Lynette, cheers go up for her fifty mile effort, and a short time later there are more cheers when Hans crosses the line. We take pictures of one another, and tell our stories. The sense of admiration and camaraderie is wonderfully thick. For the moment I forget my exhaustion and find myself buoyant with glee, and on the verge of tears - to miss people whom you only just met.
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| Jeremy, Tom, Myself, Hans, Caballo, and Dennis |
I make it to the sanctuary of Mama Tita’s restaurant but I’m too worn out to speak Spanish so Chris orders me soup, dinner and a coke. Sitting at a long table surrounded by people I become lost in my own thoughts. Voices fill the room and music from the party filters in with the cool night air. As the food starts to rejuvenate me I begin to remember things I had seen, funny things. Like the armed guard at Los Alisos who climbed down from his perch with his AK-47 to bring me a chair so I could sit in the shade and rest. Or the Tarahumara woman in the long dress and blouse wearing rubber slip on beach sandals who raced past me on her way down from Guadalupe Coranado, she was flying. And what about those guys in the jeans? They were still in the top twenty runners heading back into Urique from Los Alisos; at about mile thirty-six, could that be possible? Later that night back at the hotel room I ask Hiroki about it and he shows me a video he shot at 15K. He is behind the guys in the jeans, and they are just flat out running, we both laugh in complete amazement. Then he tells me that it took him another fifteen minutes to pass them, we laugh even more. Finally I sleep.
The next day our group, the Mas Locos, pile back into the vans for the drive out of the canyon and the journey home. When we reach the rim Doug stops at an overlook. The view of the canyon is immense and the scope of the distances we traveled the day before really sets in.
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Looking down at Urique. Photo By Jovan Atanackovic |
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Miguel Lara at finish line. Photo By Jovan Atanackovic |
Miguel Lara of Porochi, Urique was the winner. He ran fifty miles with over nine thousand feet of climbing in six hours and forty minutes. Daniel Oralek of the Czech Republic was second at six and forty-six. German Silva of Mexico came in third at six and fifty-one. All three broke the course record, a completely astonishing feat considering the temperature was over ninety degrees. The heat would take its toll on everyone. The last ten mile loop was littered with exhausted, half conscious runners going for the maximum in food vouchers; two hundred and fifty kilos of corn will be a big help to the family. Will Harlan, who won the race in 2009, collapsed a short distance from the finish line and had to be given an I.V. Hiroki finish seventh and he is happy with his effort. He tells me that the pace was very fast and that the heat was terrible. But he is more happy that a Tarahumara has won, and that they also took fourth, fifth, and sixth place. This is their race, he says.
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| Photo By Jovan Atanackovic |
The universe is an unpredictable place.
On March 27th Caballo Blanco went for a run in the Gila Wilderness of New Mexico. Five days later a close friend, who is part of a massive search and rescue effort, would find him lying peacefully in a remote creek canyon with his feet in the stream...he was dead. I had planned on finishing this story several months earlier, but Caballo’s death tore through me, and I found that I couldn’t write about the event. Now that time has passed though, I have become grateful. I am so very glad that I went, and that I was able to be there, to be witness to, and to be part of Caballo’s last race. His dedication toward the Raramuri, and generous nature made a big impression on me – have compassion for others, and give without wanting anything in return. Imagine what the world could accomplish if this became the new paradigm. But I also wonder about, and marvel at, all of the events that had to line up just right. If that young man in the shoe store had not said anything, would I have clicked that register button?
I'd like to send a special thanks to Ethan and Anne-Marie for lending me their kitchen table for the writing of this story, and to my new friends that I met there. THANK YOU!